So I sit here wondering what to do. Do I take the plunge or do I back away in fear from it? Sooner or later I'll figure this out, but as of now I don't know what to do. I could, but there are the consequences for it. But aren't consequences for everything you say and do? So provided that should I just do it? Yes there could be loss or there could be gain. If I back away does that make me coward or does it mean that i'm interested something else? I don't want to back down, but what if I'm forced to? What then? Do I just walk away or fight for it? Walking away would do nothing for me at all except humiliate me. It would only show that I didn't want it that bad, which I do want this to happen. I'm sick of being shot down, so I can only hope that I'm not. If I fight for this, who knows, I might just get it. I mean I can do it if my mind and heart are in the right place. I want this to happen so bad that I think about when the boredom kicks in. I think ' Wouldn't it be great if that were to happen?' This means so much to me and if I was blessed to have this happen to me, I would be the happiest person alive. So here's what I'm left with: Walk away from this or just take the plunge. Each choice has its own advantages and disadvantages. So those are the options? I can take them or leave them. Ah, to choose, to choose, which one to choose. So much to gain and so much to lose....I think I'll take the way that's logical to me and I'll just take this plunge and see what happens.
If you wandering why this blog was so vague, there are two reasons. One: this is an idea. An idea that you can all refer to. Two: Vagueness is fun.

Well as I sat here for 15 minutes, I got tired of this stupid line staying in the upper left hand corner of the page. So I decided it's time to move it around a little. Someone wanted me to blog about my feelings, but I don't think there is enough words to describe my feelings. I do have feelings. For some reason, some people think I'm cold hearted or some like that. Just because I don't speak. I'm shy. I only really open to someone if I know them well. That's my only issue. Being shy is somehow a good thing because I don't really go around blabbing what I think about stuff. Sometimes, people will be saying stuff and it blows up in their face. My shyness does give the advantage and disadvantage of being innocent looking. I may look innocent, but I sometimes don't act the part. Lately I've been staying up too late and sleeping in till noon. It's not all that healthy. Today I noticed that I drink the most water in my family. When they're drinking little cups of water, I usually have this big mug of cold water. Lately I've cutting down on the mountain dew. I've been trying to keep from getting break outs. I've been trying to keep myself in decent shape. I started working out again on a daily basis so that's good. Tomorrow I go back to work, I can't wait because it gets boring sometimes in this house. Oh well, I still can't believe how much I like this girl. And no, it's not who you think. Well this is it for me. I have to go now. buenos noches