Well, well, well. It has been a long, long time. I've been away too long. The sad fact is that I haven't written a word in months. All because of World of Warcraft. The game is highly addictive, sapping any potential creativity from me. Instead of writing, I would sit at my computer killing a deer with the click of a button, and skinning its hide with another. Playing the game had replaced that want, need, and desire to write with a kind of idle content. Don't get me wrong. I liked the game and I had fun playing it, perhaps too much. It stole me away from my writing, something that I've come to take for granted. I ended my subscription to WoW the other day, even uninstalled the game. That addictive game was sucking away at my life, drawing my focus away from the more important things in life. It took me away from my writing. And that was the deal breaker. Growing up, I never had a strong grasp on my personality, my self. I used to change my voice all the time, because I could never really pin down how my voice was supposed to sound, just like I could never really pin down who I was supposed to be. I have spent many hours in front of the mirror, staring at my reflection. I'm not a Narcissist. I just wondered who was the kid on the other side. Who is he? For the longest time, I didn't have any inkling or clue about the answer to that question. When I started to write, bits and pieces began to come and the blanks were filled. With each letter, each word, each sentence, each paragraph, I slowly stepped into this person that I've become. My hiatus from writing and my journey into World of Warcraft was like going backwards for me. As silly as this all sounds, I played nonstop some days, waking up at noon on my days off, and playing all the way until 6 am the next day. So I guess what I'm trying to say in a few short words is: "World of Warcraft tried to steal my soul." It wouldn't be the first time that this has happened to me either. Damn you, Monopoly! All jokes aside, it is good to be back again, to be writing again even it is not up to par with my usual.
Sometimes, I just lose my place in life, like you might lose your place in a book when the bookmark falls out. And sometimes it takes me a while to find that place again. I'm going to try to write in here on a weekly basis (keyword is "try") as a way of 'bookmarking' my life and to also jump start my writing.